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Today is the day!

Today I am full of creativity.  I've sketched out several bracelet designs today and now I can go into development for them.  It's a long way from sketch to finished bracelet, but I am working on my creativity.   First, I meditate, then I sketch, then I get to work.  I'm going to try to do this every day, and just see how much I can trick my broken body into getting something done.    Here's today's sketch.  All rights reserved.

Keybracelet

Petty people

Something in real life has been bothering me quite a bit lately.  A cooperative I'm involved in is having another bit of ugliness.  One person is spreading rumors and putting down the work of a new member.  I'm the membership chairperson, trying to allay fears about the quality of the work and to find out what the new member had seen.  It has been very stressful and depressing for me. 

Many times in my life I've been completely blindsided by gossip.  I'll hear statements like "Stop the gossiping, now!" in some group I am part of, such as my sorority, and I'll think "What gossip?"  Eventually I find out that the gossip is about me.

If there's one thing I could point to as a reason I withdraw from people and don't trust people it is this.  I've been hurt too many times by people I thought were my friends, my community, etc.

This time the gossip is not focused on me, but it still depresses me.  Why do grown men and women have to act so childishly?  Why pass around untruths and half-truths to cast aside people in your group? 

This mixture of lies and gossip is toxic.  You can't sling that stuff around without damaging yourself along the way.

It's over!

The big project I've been working on since September is finally finished.  The last of the artists have packed up and gone home.  It seems to have been pretty successful for everyone. 

I should feel relieved, but I'm so tired that it is hard to focus.  Yesterday I was a little depressed.  I've been the point of contact for all these artists for months, so my phone and email was busy all the time, especially the last few months.  Now the phone is quiet and the emails are infrequent.  There's always a letdown after the show is over, at least for me.

I will make myself look on the positive, though.  I will have more time to work on what I want to work on, without having to constantly feel that I am a week or more behind schedule.  (Well, that might not change....I'm still me.)  I have a feature coming up at a gallery that I'm in, so I need to make a lot more work and come up with a theme for my feature.  I'll take a couple of days to rest, and then I need to start working on that.  It will be fun to have my major job be working on my art for a change.  It doesn't pay as well, but there are other compensations.

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